After 11 years as a newspaper photographer, eight of which I spent at The Free Lance-Star, I left the paper and took a job at Gannett Government Media, formerly the Army Times Publishing Company, as a picture editor.
It was a hard decision to make and really required me to re-evaluate how I pictured my career path. Of all the people I worked with at my college newspaper, I was one of the few still in the photo business and almost certainly the last to actually be a newspaper staffer. I took some pride in that and I suppose that proves that on some level I’m either dumb or a masochist.
I always said getting paid to be a photographer beat working for a living and I couldn’t think of anything else I’d rather do. Well one day it occurred to me that I was miserable. I found that the majority of my assignments were not telling stories – they were illustrating somebody else’s words. I learned early on that to be successful, at least on a karmic level, you needed the cooperation of the people you photograph otherwise you are just stealing from them. Lately it was a struggle for me to connect with people, to open myself up to their situations. I was cheating them and that was unacceptable to me so I decided to step back for a while and re-evaluate what kind of photographer I am and what kinds of stories I want to tell.
I had been feeling this way for almost two years but opportunities were few and far between. I didn’t really want to go freelance, particularly in an already saturated market like DC. Suddenly this past fall, a bunch of openings cropped up – staff job at another newspaper, a wire service gig, a teaching job at my alma mater. Ultimately they didn’t pan out but the opening at Gannett came up.
I really agonized over leaving the newspaper staffer tribe. I told my wife that I felt kind of like Ray Liotta at the end of Goodfellas as he’s reflecting on all that he enjoyed as a gangster; the best restaurants, never waiting in line, nice cars, etc and then, entering witness protection, he was suddenly just like every other schnook out there. (not to suggest i got a nice car out of the news biz!) Perhaps a more apt movie parallel would be to paraphrase Al Pacino in Godfather III: that just because I’m out now, doesn’t mean I won’t get pulled back in. While I’m not shooting on a daily basis, I can pursue the stories I want to tell on my own terms. I’ll certainly miss the sports coverage (and seeing my sports-shooting friends on the sidelines week in and week out) but not most of the daily grind assignments. And I already miss my company-supplied computers and cameras! So, here’s to 2011 and a new adventure…
Here are a few of my favorite images from 2010. Who knows if they’re my best – I just like them:
Isaiah Schaffer spends time with his daughter Athenry at his parents’ Spotsylvania home on January 7, 2010. Schaffer joined the Marine Corps at 17 and served three tours in Iraq. Since returning home he has struggled with the effects of traumatic brain injury and PTSD. (Mike Morones/The Free Lance-Star)
Cadence Ferguson, 6, gets a hand from her mother Tiffany Satterwhite, of Beaverdam, as she covers herself in a bin of corn at the Caroline County Agricultural Fair in Ruther Glen, VA on July 2, 2010. (Mike Morones/The Free Lance-Star)
Stephanie Lamar talks about her husband Sgt. Donald J. Lamar in Stafford, VA on May 17, 2010. Lamar was killed while serving with the Marine Corps in Afghanistan. (Mike Morones/The Free Lance-Star)
Debbie Handley stands with her horse Wilson at Rappahannock Bend Farm in Dogue, VA on May 10, 2010. Handley was one of the first female jockeys in horse racing. She and her husband now manage Senator Mark Warner’s King George farm. (Mike Morones/The Free Lance-Star)
Courtland’s Avery Green, 2010 All-Area basketball player. (Mike Morones/The Free Lance-Star)
Blake and Eric Frohnapfel are seniors on the football team at Colonial Forge High School in Stafford, VA, on Aug. 17, 2010. For 2010 High School Football Preview. (Mike Morones/The Free Lance-Star)
Colonial Forge’s Sara Warford reacts after giving up a point to Osbourn Park. The Colonial Forge Eagles fell to the Osbourn Park Yellow Jackets 3-1 in the Northwest Region semifinal at Colonial Forge High School in Stafford, VA on Nov. 11, 2010. (Mike Morones/The Free Lance-Star)
After running out of bounds late in the second quarter, Washington Redskins fans berate Eagles quarterback Michael Vick. (Mike Morones/The Free Lance-Star)
The Louisa County Lions gather following their loss to the Broad Run Spartans 39-21in the Region II semifinal at Louisa County High School in Mineral, VA on Nov. 19, 2010. (Mike Morones/The Free Lance-Star)
Abigail Orrock, 8 months, sits in her grandfather’s seat in the House of Delegates before the start of the 2010 Legislative Session of the Virginia General Assembly at the Capitol in Richmond, Va on January 13, 2010. (Mike Morones/The Free Lance-Star)